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The Role of My Lifetime
by Step Rowe
After yearning for so long for that chance to share a part of myself, after doubting myself, after seeing others and wishing I could be as blessed, after questioning why I should continue to lead my life the way I do, after so long...I've finally been given the role of a lifetime! It was hard to believe at first because I've gotten my hopes up so many times before, only to have the disappointment, followed by the proverbial "something better must be coming." I'm indescribably excited and I can't keep this a secret any longer. So here I am sharing the news with you.
Dreams are a funny thing. We often begin by thinking that they are unbelievable, unachievable. We're not even sure where the desire comes from. We question what moves us to a creative outlet. It isn't practical. It isn't safe. Yet we have to try it. We think that by taking the risk, we may "ruin" everything secure that we've worked to achieve. We theorize that we may end up taking several steps back for the one step we take forward. Somewhere deep inside, however, we truly believe in ourselves. We know that even if fame eludes us, the dream will make us a better person in the long run.
Those of you who know me, or have read my articles, know that I'm a thrill seeker. I don't believe in just learning about life, but in living it to the fullest. I really think that this will pay off for me now. Up until now, everything was a part of the search - the search for greatness - the attempt to better oneself mentally and physically. Since I heard the news, I have started training. I can't tell you how good it feels to have a definite goal. I've bought several books, I'm interviewing people, I'm searching the Internet, I'm asking questions, I'm physically training, and I'm carefully planning my diet. Part of me wants to throw this part out the window, but I know that my health not only affects me, but the entire production. Sometimes I get really nervous from all of the pressure. Then I try to remember that I'm not the only one who's ever had this chance. Plenty of people less prepared than I have succeeded - I can too.
And I don't want to just succeed. I want to be incredible. Every life experience that I've had, every turn in my education, every job, every person, every philosophy that I've ever encountered will influence how well I perform. This isn't just a small time production. This is the most important opportunity of my lifetime. This role encompasses everything I have ever studied, every skill I have ever learned. This is my chance to leave a part of myself behind, to make a very personal mark on the world, and I don't want to blow it.
Many of you may think that I'm taking this all a bit too seriously. I'm not the first and I won't be the last. To me, however, everything that I've done in my life to this point now has some meaning. The power that my role gives me to influence is incredibly sobering to me. So much could happen between now and then, I know. Nothing is ever a sure thing. I'll only be sure when the day arrives. It will be hard for me to wait until the scheduled date (and I know things always change in this business), but as of right now, the big day is February 17th. The day that I take on the role of my lifetime...mother.
Step has recently booked commercials and print in Dallas and Austin and currently coaches private acting in Canyon Lake and San Antonio.